Lately. He visits me in my dreams. I don’t remember his laugh. But at night I can feel his pain. Night after night. Anger. Sadness. Grief. Why are you haunting me? What is it that you have to say? Are you disappointed in my choices? Why do you keep coming and going as you please? …
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The Secret
I don't know how young I was. But I was old enough to know that this wasn't right. It wasn't ok. This shouldn't be happening. I was sleeping my mom's bed that she shared with him at the time. She was at work. I think. I woke up. I was scared. This wasn't right. What …
Grandpa
The carpet is a white, tan, and shaggy. I run my fingers through it like I am combing my hair. The sun is shining through the window and the memory is filtered in white. Sister is there. And so are you, over by the white sofa chair. We are laughing. You are on all fours …
My “WHY” in China
It's hard for me to put into words all the things I have experienced these last 4 months. To be honest, moving here has probably been the most challenging thing I've done in a long time. It's not easy, and I do recall people telling me that it wouldn't be easy. But I did it …
A Welcome Back Letter
I haven't posted in a long time. A very long time. And I'm not going to go into details about where I've been, or what I've done over the past year and a half since my last post (May 2018). What I am going to get into is why I'm back. To be honest I've …
Joy in pain
This week I have been listening to the audiobook “The Book of Joy” – which if you have not picked up a copy yet, you should. For me it has brought a lot of reflection in my own life. This book is written by the Dalai Lama, Archbishop Desmond Tutu and Douglas Abrams Carlton. It …
If Tina Fey and Amy Poehler had a kid…
It would be me. Or at least that's what I tell myself. I like to think I'm funny like them. Just as awkward. Confident in who I am. But really, I'm just a 26 year old Midwesterner living below the Mason Dixie line trying to travel the world on a teacher salary. How does someone …
Someday, Today 