I wake up gasping for air
because I forgot how to breath.
I go through the day
hand clasped over my chest
trying to slow it’s beat.
Tears stain my cheeks
as I smile through the agony,
Longing to be held
longing to let go.
My thoughts are haunted
with pain from the past.
Everywhere I look
I see the demons that want to take me.
I’m filled with fatigue
and my legs crave to crash beneath me.
The world spins
and I find a wall
to hold me still.
As my day ends I lay awake
begging myself
to succumb to my dreams.
But my body won’t still
and my thoughts keep rolling.
I’m tired from the battle
I keep fighting inside my head.
I want to live, but I only know
how to Survive.
People tell me to be strong
“Woman up and smile”.
Can’t they say that every day
I’m trying?
Everyday fighting
for my survival.
How do I live, when I only survive?
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