1 am and I can’t sleep again

My head is racing with thoughts

and conversations that never happened

I toss and turn, tangled up in velvet blue

Wondering if I am ever going to make it through

the sleepless nights and foggy days

The desperate smiles and my hopeless daze

This isn’t just a season or a phase

It’s something more

Deep within my core

Quietly screaming

My body is a battleground

Quickly breaking me down

Medicated dreams

Are not as peaceful as they may seem

Numbing my anxiety

blurring the lines

between what’s in my mind

and reality.